Changes in 2014

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In the dim background of our mind, we know what we ought to be doing but somehow we cannot start. 

William James

What I am about to say is beyond cliche and for that I offer my apologies. But here it is: things need to change in 2014. In a few weeks blogs are going to fill with different ideas at how you can change, what you can change and steps to take to make that change. The word “resolution” will spike on search engines and people will resolve to start things over and end things. I am thankful for new things and I am grateful for old things.

But things must change.

I am guilty of starting things and not finishing them. I have done it my entire life. Do any search on my blog and you will find resolutions I planned and shortly after failing. I have started “reading through the bible” plans so many times I have lost count. I have started and dropped so many different diet plans I can almost write a book on what not to do. It is a sheer miracle that my liver and stomach still function as many times as I have changed my eating patterns. Yet, in spite of the all the evidence weighed against me I still have to change.

A couple of months ago in a conversation I had with God I told him that I was going to finish the things that I started. Part of that conversation lead me to hear that if I saw a need and I could fulfill it then I needed to do it. For example, if I walked by and saw a piece of garbage and thought, “I could pick it up and throw it away” then I needed to do it. If dishes were in the sink and I had time to do it immediately instead of delaying the inevitable then I fulfilled that need. I have done better but old habits still persist.

So things must change.

Part of the things that must change have to do with social media. I have fasted before from it but have always returned to it after a time. I try to say, “I am only going to check it so often” but that turns into habitual checking of notifications, updates and the like. It’s not just Facebook but email seems to get my attention with the “notification phenomena” that draws me to checking the email. So things must change. Facebook has also stirred some jealousy over people who seem to be doing better than me financially. This is my own issue but it seems Facebook is the medium through which that issue is accentuated. Furthermore, I am just tired of it all. The relentless rat race where it seems I cannot simply stay in the presence of Go but I have to check updates. I am discerning what I need to do but all the evidence seems to point to one conclusion and that is I must delete Facebook and Twitter. Not sure when but I think it needs to be done.

So things must change.

I am concerned about myself physically, emotionally and spiritually. 2013 was a rough year. I let issues in my heart fester and it all came to a head in the form of anxiety. The brunt of my rough year was caught by my wife and kids who were recipients of my unresolved issues which manifested itself in impatience, frustration and just  a lack of being the father and husband God intends.

So things must change.

I want 2014 to be a year where I spend enormous amounts of time immersed in the riches of God’s love and redemption. I am tired of walking through life haphazardly experiencing only snippets of what God intends instead of basking in the will he has laid out for me. So I must change. How? I don’t have a clue. But I am going to do it.

Into the wild…

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  • averageym

    YES!! your 2013 sounds a lot like my 2013 :) maybe we can walk through this change in 2014 together. thank you for sharing your heart.

    • http://www.missionalyouthministry.com/ Robbie Mackenzie

      Thanks man. I look up to you. Keep it up

  • Chaplain Larry

    Robbie, praying for you regarding the changes you are making in your life. May you be surrounded by God’s grace, love, and mercy.

    • http://www.missionalyouthministry.com/ Robbie Mackenzie

      Thank you. I feel more surrounded than ever. I think this has to do with me letting his presence in.